have the stinkin flu…Jackson is in intensive care in Tacoma and i cant go to him cause of this flu……will the fun never end?

how i wish i was there„„,i want to live there so badly it keeps me awake just the thought of it.I dont know that i can get rid of my eartly possessions to be able to go over with just a suitcase and start over….but that the dream job i crave„„re-doing houses„and spending their money to get to do it…….                             dave hasnt been gone but 6 days out of the 80 before i see him again„,everynight i go to bed later and later waiting till i know he is alive and up for the day….i hate that he dosent live with me and that is not temporary„,this it is until i cant take it and end the marriage„„wow after 30 years„„im almost to that point im s very lonely „my poor furrys hate it when i cry and run because they know a snuggle with snot lovey session is about to commense,….thats where im at today….